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-Day Walker
THE EXPOSURE Jameslantern40.WordPress.com was sponsored by a catholic church(St.Joseph Nursery School )in Buruburu Phase One. It wasn’t far from where we lived, about 800 metres , house no. 280 big numbers. Sometimes to move forward you have to move backwards.What were the fond memories of the nursery school?the food, wetting the mattress where we took a nap (i was four) . Funny,my mum took me to my first day of school, it’s not a coinscidence that it was not my father for the pattern beforehand was just being set, his absence, the disappointments and eventual fallout of fellowship and this is without fault, but to fulfill my master’s wishes and for His glory and my better good. Back to the story i still remember the uniform color, the green apron stitched with our names. I was a lefty in terms of writing .I emphasise terms because I'm not a pure breed, i'm a hybreed, I'm neither left or right handed. Going to that school, worked for my good, because I got to see the catholic world though I was not a member. The crucifix ,a major emblem of the catholic denomination was a mysterious thing.I once knelt before one and prayed to an un inanimate object of jesus,though Jesus is in heaven, he had risen yet people pray as if he is stuck at the cross. Hence the mystery of that religion to an outsider, was for me demystified.Yap !,i thank God for the exposure.The school had plenty of stories for us kids,like Jack and the bean stalk,little red riding hood(For me stories were an escape to an imaginary world. That’ s where my imagination was being prepared). But as I got older, that part of me was being killed by low self esteem.I was being prepared, yet in the natural i was dying.The law taking full advantage of me, killing me softly. “I took you from the sheep pen “i never forgot that rebuke God gives David in the bible. Grown up figures who believed in make belief were attached to my life in form of entertainers(musicians and actors) a major influence. The law is of works thus i couldn’t walk by faith, i couldn’ t inherit. The rest of the church folk, where this book is based on, what they call anointing is simply mental fancy. By the grace of God He was faithful, he saw me through.Giving me an inheritance up yonder. Now I still got it by grace. Back to the story. I drew pictures in my head,as teachers told stories, call it day dreaming. Amazing that in the year 2000, a nursery teacher could still remember me,thirteen years later. I was fascinated by comics .When i was twelve ,I went to my room and tried to fly after watching an episode of the warner series” loise and clerk the new adventures of superman”. Backtracking, my mum took me to my first day in school , how time flies.I think that was important. To God be the glory. In primary school ,i remember sitting next to a girl called Mary in standard two.For some reason ,I felt lucky to sit next to this brown girl,a key figure at that stage of my life ,like a coordinate.She had a brown skin tone just like my sister. People make coordinates in my life.In High school ,i remember washing the toilet,it was a duty i was given by the school. I was in form one then equivalent of 9th grade.The early morning scent of upcountry air ruled as I embarked on that servitude task. I felt very abandoned in that boarding school. I think it was for the very fact my dad didn’t search for the school for me, but my uncle. There is a reason i’m hinting at fatherly mentorship lack ,as a justification for my adoption by Abba up yonder.For my 416/700 marks in k.c.p.e was a failure to my dad. conditional love, that is what i grew up with.You can imagine when my adoptive Father gave me everything unconditonally ,my d.n.a changed. Back to my earthly father,he didn’t also take me to be circumcised as other boys after that k.c.p.e exam(i got circumcised 4 months later ),having escaped the shame on my first term in high school with that anormaly. Slowly i begun to loose faith in the natural and begun going for supernatural to my creator. Concerning circumcision, an important element in boyhood ,it was another uncle who took me. As people turn to vices to escape rejection, i found myself being drawn to the creator.At that period when I insisted that I be circumcised, it is my uncle took me. You can say from that time I lost faith in my father. I also wanted a bike at age 12 he promised me but broke that promise. In high school, I remember sitting at the basket ball court,watching my best friend John( at the time )playing basketball,as I battled adolescence delay on my part, that was in 1998,Memories. College life i struggled, i Android
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